Again, as with all blogs It takes me ages before I can allow myself to share with you, so they are not as frequent as I would like them to be.
Right now, I am stuck in one of those bubbles, feeling a bit negative, down and wondering what I am going to do with my life and I feel people are judging me because I don’t have a full time job.
I am just after finishing my access course in UCD in History and Law and am now on my summer holidays until I start my next college course a part time level 8 business degree In UCD which will last 4 years. I keep thinking to myself what I am going to do with my life, am I constantly going to be stuck doing college courses or will I ever get a full-time job? This is something people with Autism struggle with, not because they are not capable, but because they are not given the opportunity, the correct tools and understanding to cope. I am 24, a qualified personal trainer, nutritional advisor, have a sports psychology cert and now have my access course. I have done several other courses including first aid training, mental health first aid training etc. I am at the stage where all my friends are starting to complete their degrees and go on to do masters or work full time jobs where as my life feels on hold and I don’t know what is going to happen in the future. Being on the Autism Spectrum I like my life to have structure and know what is going to happen next so this is difficult and frustrating for me.
Thanks for reading my blog I know it is not as positive as previously but I feel like I really shouldn’t just be sharing just my best bits (like social media seems to have become a place where people only share their highlights and edited pictures to show living a fake life) I believe that sharing what is really going on and how I am feeling will help others to realise that we all have are good and bad times and that it will pass, I have to remind myself that life is not a sprint. I will leave you with one of my favourite quotes I used in a previous blog ‘You will become way less concerned with what other people think of you when you realise how seldom they do’ This Is something I think we should all remember not just people with Autism who worry about everything and anything!